May 2019 Quote: Keep Floating

“If her sorrows were an ocean

And her happiness a pool

She would have surely drowned

If it weren’t for the ounce of hope

That helped keep her afloat.”

– floweringpages

To the untethered soul,

Sometimes life is hard and it feels like their is so much pain beating in your chest. Sometimes life can test you with challenges that you feel unprepared for. Sometimes you just feel like giving up because everything feels so difficult in that moment that you can’t breathe.

Breathe.

Remember that heart in your chest that is working and the lungs that are allowing you to live. Feel your heart pounding as you breathe.

Be thankful for that breathe.

Things are going to be okay.

Whatever you’re feeling now, I hope you know you’re not alone in your pain or sorrow. I hope you know that there will be better days that you will be thankful, so thankful for, that you held on to hope rather than let your sadness drag you down.

I wrote this during a time in my life when I wasn’t the happiest. And to some people, that may surprise them that because they think that I’m always such an upbeat and happy person.

But even the sun has to set at the end of the day.

There was a time in my life where I felt I was falling into a dark abyss and no one was there for me. I wondered why things did this have to happen to me or how I didn’t deserve to be ridiculed so young. But it did. And nothing was going to change what I went through and what I heard growing up. So my feelings went deep and I retreated into myself—–floating like a lone boat in treacherous waters.

At school, I would be quiet, but no one made anything of it because that’s my natural demeanor. Other times, I would talk or smile or something just for show. At home, I was more quiet than usual. But the whole house was more quiet than usual. Things were hard.

But I had hope amongst everything.

Even if sometimes it didn’t sow or I didn’t feel it in every fiber or crevice of my being. Because you know what, some hope is better than none.

It was hope that buoyed me to the surface and kept me from drowning.

I had people in my life who tried to make my days better and to lift me up. I had books that tethered me to the earth and made me see that my problems were minuscule compared to what heroins and heroes do in books. I had things to look forward to in the morning like banana pancakes and ice cream for dessert. I had things that I was so thankful for that helped me survive.

Everyday I try to remind myself of all the things that I have in life and to be grateful for them. It reminded me the no matter how pained, anxious, or stressed I felt, there was so much more to life than the feelings that felt overwhelming in that moment.

You will get through it as I got through it.

Maybe you need more time, and that’s fine. I just hope you hold onto your hopes in life and what makes you happy. I just hope you surround yourself with good, supportive people who know you deep down enough to ask you if you’re okay or who will be there to make you smile when all you feel like is crying or frowning. I just hope you still have that passion and drive to love and to live.

And no matter what happens, never, never sink to far that you can’t find your way back up. It’s hard when you’re in deep waters and you can’t swim to the surface because everything is hazy and dreary.

Keep floating guys and gals.

Life is worth

It’s worth it, I promise.

With love, as always,